With Elite totals being put on the back burner until I graduate, looks like the next best thing would be at least get in the fucking gym. It's been 6 months since I lifted anything other than a pen, so I'm hoping to train at least three times a week for the next three weeks to establish a routine - also cutting out alcohol during this time. The lifting shouldn't be too hard to achieve considering I'm out of school until January 17th... the drinking is going to be torture. Have put on a ton of unhealthy weight and climbed back into the 310's with ease. Back fat rolls, lower back pain, lack of mobility, copious craft beers and high-fat food, last-minute lazy meal choices, lack of sleep... shit has gotten out of control.
Lots of weak shit has kept me out of the gym too: I grow anxious anticipating the annoying people who are gonna bother the shit out of me, my kids don't look forward to going anymore, Wifey bailed on the lifting over a year ago, my old lifting partners and I have stayed out of touch since before I stopped lifting... expecting some awkwardness in many places upon my return. I wish I could rock a shirt that said, "I have love for y'all... but gimme three months before we fucking speak. I need to get my shit together." I'll try this with big headphones and hoodies.
Shit is sad... but TID is where I've overcome many obstacles, so where better to vent as I embark on another tumultuous adventure of self-pity and lost pride?
Here's to breaking a sweat, burning some calories and fitting back into all the clothes I bought last Spring. Maybe I can get there by Summer smh.