Stop beating yourself up POB. You have a lot of great things in your life: a good job, a great fiance(congrats btw), a healthy child, and a brotherhood of friends. The meet is merely a fun day of lifting and a beginning to a long and exciting journey. I feel beat up too bro, so I just took off the last 8 days and ate like a champ, and I swear to God I feel 95% rejuvenated and rearing to go. This ramp up to the meet is a learning experience that takes dozens of times to perfect, I'm sure. So we just need to pay attention to how we're feeling and learn from it.
I for one am going to drop the test dose next time and not start my blast so far out. I'm also going to not worry about what weight class I'm in and just eat for recovery and energy.
Pick your fucking head up and enjoy this experience bro. You know how many shit-talkers there are out there who don't have the balls to compete? And you are competing against yourself only. Not me, not Joe Schmoe, you and you alone.