LOL... Def Aj's woman... Welcome Lysa... you should know by now you are not the only one mourning his departure... AJ was a man among men, always stood for his beliefs and never backed down... I wish more of us were like him. I would like to encourage you to keep your head up and never show fear in the face of danger.... you have a very rough road ahead of you, but, you are going to do just fine. You are strong, smart and beautiful... Cancer is weak and ugly... It can be defeated... you will be victorious... I am not sure if you are a praying woman or what your relationship with God is, but he is Still in the miracle business... never forget that.. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Welcome to the Den!how do you have the body you have when you eat cotton candy like its gonna run away if you dont slam the whole bag, mcdonalds, and all my other decadent disgusting fattening habits like potato chips and cheese curls before bed everynight! I always say the same thing though. I spent 30 of my 48 years eating clean, training my ass off, not drinking or partying and although my body isnt all cock deisel and on stage anymore i can still rock a bikini and make it my bitch. Its just the way things go. its annoying when people think, oh, you dont lift anymore your body is gonna go to shit. thats crap! yea my skinny ass giggles and people dont ask me randomly how much i bench anymore but my physique didnt just pack up and move out the day i stopped lifting weights haha. Its equally annoying when a fat person starts doing the right thing and eating right and training and gets pissed because they dont look cute at the beach 6 months later. REALLY??!! you didnt GET in that condition in 6 months so why would you think you could turn it around overnight? DUH!
Lysa... dont worry yourself with the stress of petty drama... not now anyway... your health is your main focus right now.. and ours too... those of us who stood by AJ then still do... and we stand by you... again, dont get into the drama right now... focus your energy on the positive! STAY STRONG!!! --ICThank you. I just wanted to clear up one more thing while Im here. I am aware of MUCH grief, alienation, accusations, and other negative stuff directed towards AJ after he got pinched and throughout that entire process. That all happened while we were dating and it was heartbreaking and discouraging to watch. He kept his relationships with you all on the boards very private but the effects of all the gossip and speculation hurt him deeply. To have such a close online relationship with so many on these boards only to get in trouble and have so many scared liittle cock roaches scatter, hide, and the proceed to throw rocks is inexcusable. WE ALL know that is wrong and it is nothing more than self preservation and wanting to save your own ass. I get that. It does NOT excuse you from your actions though, nor is it a valid excuse to treat someone who in the good times has always been here giving freely, suggestions and advice For EVERYONE, end up in trouble, and then treated like an outsider in his own world. I joined his board and sometimes can read posts there but i am unable to reply because the owner is AJ. I like this board, have gotten tremendous support from you all here, even phone calls since Ive been in the hospital. THANK YOU and thank you for welcoming me to your world. There is no rhyme or reason as to why i choose to post here and not the others other than the fact that its physically impossible for me to post reply's on AJs board. Im so thankful for all of you who stood by AJ during his ordeals with the law. YOU are the reason I am here today, sharing, caring, and trying my best to keep his memory alive. My update: We got a lot of snow here yesterday so I am still at the local hospital and now back to waiting for a bed to come open at Hopkins before they can transfer me down there. Hoping I can find someone to bring my dog in to visit today! I havent seen him since Sunday and I miss him terribly! Hope everyone has a fantastic day and I will talk to you soon.Lysa
Im struggling...feeling down today. kinda want to cry.
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