Esophageal RIP

[956Vette]

I hope this message finds everyone well. Reaching out to the brothers and sisters as I navigate healing from an esophageal rupture. I’m looking for some grounding guidance while aiming to heal asap & make a full recovery.

I appreciate any insights, whether they’re medical, emotional, or practical in nature and welcome any questions. Multiple docs chalked the incident as a fluke occurrence, citing Boerhaave syndrome:

Boerhaave syndrome is a rare, life-threatening condition characterized by a transmural (full-thickness) perforation of the esophagus, typically resulting from a sudden, massive increase in intraluminal pressure, most commonly due to forceful or repeated vomiting.

So there I was, not being a drinker, enjoying that last drink for the foreseeable future...in before switching up the pain medicine strategy and initiating naltrexone (giving meloxicam an extended holiday). Big mistake.
Leading up the big rip, which occurred with the lightest/highly unremarkable regurgitation, my personal life was out of control. Multiple women in the picture, stressed me out and weighed heavy on the conscious...had hiccups like a mfer, sabotaged a number of opportunity. Pathetic, I realize (I'm mortified and should have allowed my mistress and dream girl, who is a prescriber, Rx methocarbamol/baclofen). Otherwise binged for a few weeks in middle school and generally lack what could have lent vulnerability (acid reflux etc). What are the odds (primary care doc could only dig up one such bozo to draw correlation...)?

Family blessed my hospitalization with plenty contraband along the way, don't think I would have faired as well without. TRT continuity was met with great friction from the hospitals, fortunately didn't go without for long (thanks for convenient pre-loads in luggage/vehicle). Leaving with my life, a 6" scar and 4 wounds from the chest tube experience...the stiffness from lying in the hospital bed is behind me as I enjoyed day 1 back in the gym (almost 2 weeks since leaving the hospital). Feels good, man (DMOS ftw) .

I gas quick, in my early estimation, felt as though I had lung access/usage/volume upwards of 75-80%. Feelings this has been the case have persisted for a few weeks now (which makes me nervous, uneasy and impatient). It was around a month ago when my (ex-)fiancé started fucking me during visits (nurses eventually caught onto the habit, damned heart monitoring...). Today, my stamina has increased by a large margin, however it's difficult to convince myself I still lack at least 1/4-1/5 of my breathing capacity. Smooth brain having hard times connecting to uncharted areas of the body...feels like there's a mystery complex of slow healing transpiring within the thoracic.

For certain, dosing all the protein drug stash, BPC157/GHK-cu/TB-500/KPV/etc. Dropped nearly 30lbs on the liquid diet/feeding tube, gained 12-15lbs back so far. Stuck behind the desk for work, as I cannot see the people and go canvassing reliably - probably should push it and get back out there, most however have advised not to push it.... Few weeks out from doc removing the stent holding together the esophagus. Probably could increase the NAC & glutathione and resist urges to smoke a joint...missing anything in the chemical/supplement arena (assuming healing the lung is the looming primary objective)? Anyone have any experience or insights regarding healing from such an injury?
Thank you so much for reading.

 

[Yano]

This is so far over my head all i'm gonna do is over up a hug a hearty handshake and a HOLY SHIT DUDE !!

God Bless ya its good to see ya back up and around !!

 

[genetic freak]

Have you tried reaching out to Dusty Hanshaw on social media? I am sure he would respond. He nearly died from a esophageal tear and was in a coma for a month or so. He recovered well.

 

[rawdeal]

Never heard of "Boerhaave," but some of your story resembles the "Mallory Weiss" dx I had years ago ... so I googled it. Turns out the 2, while not identical, are very similar as to possible causes, treatments, outcomes, etc. Primary cause for both is intra-esophageal pressure, but that begs the question about wtf causes that?

Various possibilities, but this went on to answer my initial curiousity about your report of compromised breathing after your initial problem was the "food tube," rather than the trachea.

Boerhaave and Mallory Weiss both involve ruptures somewhere along the esophagus, which (may) lead to leakage of digestive system contents into other places they have no business being in. Has that, and your description of ongoing symptoms, been discussed during follow-up care?

 

[rawdeal]

. . . . He nearly died from a esophageal tear and was in a coma for a month or so. He recovered well.

Saw that in my superficial reading too. Worst case scenario, but there are varying levels of "just" bad case scenarios as well. Interestingly enough(?!) one of the possible causes for the intra-esophageal pressure was listed as "weightlifting," although other possibles were mentioned ahead of that.

 

[Glycomann]

Yeah reach out to Dusty Hanshaw. Same think I think. Thought his was from force feeding steak though.

 

[Cohiba]

I can relate to the women problems lol.

Just be patient and keep grinding, I'd bet you get back to normal eventually.