Big Cat
RIP
- Dec 11, 2011
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Ok, I'm usually not the type for logs, I have the attention span of a lobotomized gnat (this ADHD thing is amazing for researching, but not the greatest in terms of discipline), but as I hope to detail in this opening post, its time for some serious changes in my life.
I've earned my stripes in this community as a researcher, a writer, a trainer. I've always enjoyed the intellectual side of things more. It's always been my selling point that in any gym you'll find people bigger than me, more shredded than me, more balanced than me. In some gyms combinations of all those things, but that what i did achieve in my lifetime i achieved with far less effort than most of you. Efficiency and the scientific method have made me an encyclopaedia of knowledge pertaining to everything physique related, from training to nutrition, from supplementation to chemical enhancement. But it also kept me from doing pretty much anything with any consistency, as I was always chasing and researching the next best thing, and paired with that, I did all my work in the library, on a screen and a little bit in the gym, but almost never where it counted : At home and work with rest, nutrition, timing etc. I was always content with where I was at too, since I never aimed for anything competitive myself. The only bragging rights I was chasing was to be the greatest mind in the sport, not the greatest body. Almost twelve years down the road its a little sad (and downright scary) now to imagine what I could have possibly done had I had some measure of discipline across all these years.
From '99 to '07 I was pretty much a fixture in the online bodybuilding community. After that, life kicked in. I lost my friend and mentor Karl Hoffman, saw the birth of my sons, working longer hours and farther from home, a really bad break-up, a depression and a custody battle, all before I started getting my life back on track. Since then I met the love of my life, bought a house, started working closer to home, and just three weeks ago, I got married (fresh off the honeymoon now). We are talking about perhaps a third child as well. All this has prompted me to settle down, but also get back to what I'm good at. My research and my training. But this time I don't just want to be the smartest, i don't just want to help others become the best. This time, I want to get stronger, bigger, healthier. Me. Stop running from all the stuff I tell the people I train, stop telling myself they have something I don't, stop making excuses. There's a few other factors that influenced this decision as well.
As many of the people who do know/remember me, I am a long-time steroid expert. Type I steroid receptor physiology is my self-proclaimed field of expertise, I have extensive background in biochem, molecular bio and biotech, and have over a decade worth of real life experience with dozens of athletes. My stance on them for a long time was simple : they can be used safely and effectively, but there is no point in using them if A) you don't need them and B) you don't use them properly. Since Both of those applied to me for the longest time I stuck to my principles that eventhough I'm likely one of the top 5 experts on the matter in the world, these products weren't for me. However during the rougher times in my life i succumbed to curiosity and need to research certain things up close and personal. I did a cycle or two properly and it all culminated (part circumstance, part research) in a third nearly 20-month low-dose testosterone cycle. While I gained a great deal of information on the emotional and psychological aspects of AAS use that one just can't get only working with others, I really only re-affirmed that they weren't for me. I gained probably a fraction of what I should have gained on them because they affected me enormously psychologically : they made me very complacent and undisciplined. At the start of this year I basically realized a few things : 1) if I was going to maybe try for a third child I needed to get off. 2) there were some concerns with my cardiovascular health that predated any steroid use that were getting serious enough for me to realize I needed to get that stuff in order before using anything else and 3) that I shouldn't be using this stuff in the first place unless I learned the discipline needed to make this stuff worth the money and the risk. At this point there is also nothing new I need to be learning about AAS, so I didn't even have that excuse.
Combine all these previous facts and you find me where I am now. About to embark on a scary new adventure. Putting my own pride on the line for the first time and start doing more than working out. As of this week, i want to be a bodybuilder ! I want that inner strength, that discipline I saw in my clients every day. I came up from 140 lbs at age 17 to 218 fairly lean pounds (I obviously dieted down for my wedding ) just going through the motions and applying what I know. Know its time to find out what I can do if I really put my mind to it.
Where we are at : I started 09/07, new program, in the first week now just establishing my starting weights. First 10-12 weeks in terms of training will be pretty basic just trying to progressively adding some weight (bodyweight and lifted weight) before we mix up the rep ranges more randomly and add extra small sessions. After a diet is the best time to start eating slightly more but still clean. That will be the biggest task for me I suppose. I'm not using anything steroid wise and as far as supplements I'm sticking to my staples : Zinc (cycling 100-300 mg a day), fish oil for the omega 3 (since I hate fish), whey protein to supplement shortcomings in protein, and where my research is at i'm doing some experimentation with free form leucine and arginine but with distinctly different timing from what you'd expect (extra leucine seems to be a waste around training time if you take whey, and arginine is actually counterproductive around training time - but more on that later in the log)
What I'm aiming at : I'm giving myself 1 year. I turn 32 in August, by age 33 I want to be well on my way to become a respectable bodybuilder. That means balance my physiqe out (finally fix my weak chest, stop slacking on upper leg training so my gigantic calves don't dwarf my very average legs, add serious rear del size), increase bodyweight by a significant amount (not specifying and keep in mind I'm going natural and for the first time ever i'm not drastically bulking up this winter - another health promise I made myself) and finally look reflective of my BF percentage (each summer I get below 7% and still I tend to look smoother than I should be largely because I'm not eating the right things at the right times). At that time I will evaluate, but it would be nice to look in the mirror then and say "by age 34 I'm going up on a stage". It's not impossible, I've worked with less and achieved more, but in those cases the people had the main quality - discipline - and only needed my knowledge, which is easy when i'm standing next to them. Now we are starting from the knowledge and I have to grow discipline before I can grow muscle. A daunting task.
What i'd love to get out of this log : Give and take. I want to take you guys through all the stuff I do on paper to get where i'm going and hopefully be able to teach people something. But I also realize i'm going to need a lot of feedback, motivation, tips and tricks to help maintain the lifestyle.
And when i'm totally back into things in a few weeks, i'd like to start a blog somewhere, start writing articles again about all things BB related : training, nutrition, supplementation, chemical enhancement, but also lifestyle and philosophy. That's also something I need a LOT of help on. I have no idea how to start a blog, where I would best go about it, how I can generate some traffic towards it, what sort of content people would like to see, and a lot of feedback on how to make it bigger and better.
I'm hoping I can find some of that help here ...
What's next on this thread :
1.Training Split
2. Example diet and supp schedule with reasonings
3.Impressions of the first days
I've earned my stripes in this community as a researcher, a writer, a trainer. I've always enjoyed the intellectual side of things more. It's always been my selling point that in any gym you'll find people bigger than me, more shredded than me, more balanced than me. In some gyms combinations of all those things, but that what i did achieve in my lifetime i achieved with far less effort than most of you. Efficiency and the scientific method have made me an encyclopaedia of knowledge pertaining to everything physique related, from training to nutrition, from supplementation to chemical enhancement. But it also kept me from doing pretty much anything with any consistency, as I was always chasing and researching the next best thing, and paired with that, I did all my work in the library, on a screen and a little bit in the gym, but almost never where it counted : At home and work with rest, nutrition, timing etc. I was always content with where I was at too, since I never aimed for anything competitive myself. The only bragging rights I was chasing was to be the greatest mind in the sport, not the greatest body. Almost twelve years down the road its a little sad (and downright scary) now to imagine what I could have possibly done had I had some measure of discipline across all these years.
From '99 to '07 I was pretty much a fixture in the online bodybuilding community. After that, life kicked in. I lost my friend and mentor Karl Hoffman, saw the birth of my sons, working longer hours and farther from home, a really bad break-up, a depression and a custody battle, all before I started getting my life back on track. Since then I met the love of my life, bought a house, started working closer to home, and just three weeks ago, I got married (fresh off the honeymoon now). We are talking about perhaps a third child as well. All this has prompted me to settle down, but also get back to what I'm good at. My research and my training. But this time I don't just want to be the smartest, i don't just want to help others become the best. This time, I want to get stronger, bigger, healthier. Me. Stop running from all the stuff I tell the people I train, stop telling myself they have something I don't, stop making excuses. There's a few other factors that influenced this decision as well.
As many of the people who do know/remember me, I am a long-time steroid expert. Type I steroid receptor physiology is my self-proclaimed field of expertise, I have extensive background in biochem, molecular bio and biotech, and have over a decade worth of real life experience with dozens of athletes. My stance on them for a long time was simple : they can be used safely and effectively, but there is no point in using them if A) you don't need them and B) you don't use them properly. Since Both of those applied to me for the longest time I stuck to my principles that eventhough I'm likely one of the top 5 experts on the matter in the world, these products weren't for me. However during the rougher times in my life i succumbed to curiosity and need to research certain things up close and personal. I did a cycle or two properly and it all culminated (part circumstance, part research) in a third nearly 20-month low-dose testosterone cycle. While I gained a great deal of information on the emotional and psychological aspects of AAS use that one just can't get only working with others, I really only re-affirmed that they weren't for me. I gained probably a fraction of what I should have gained on them because they affected me enormously psychologically : they made me very complacent and undisciplined. At the start of this year I basically realized a few things : 1) if I was going to maybe try for a third child I needed to get off. 2) there were some concerns with my cardiovascular health that predated any steroid use that were getting serious enough for me to realize I needed to get that stuff in order before using anything else and 3) that I shouldn't be using this stuff in the first place unless I learned the discipline needed to make this stuff worth the money and the risk. At this point there is also nothing new I need to be learning about AAS, so I didn't even have that excuse.
Combine all these previous facts and you find me where I am now. About to embark on a scary new adventure. Putting my own pride on the line for the first time and start doing more than working out. As of this week, i want to be a bodybuilder ! I want that inner strength, that discipline I saw in my clients every day. I came up from 140 lbs at age 17 to 218 fairly lean pounds (I obviously dieted down for my wedding ) just going through the motions and applying what I know. Know its time to find out what I can do if I really put my mind to it.
Where we are at : I started 09/07, new program, in the first week now just establishing my starting weights. First 10-12 weeks in terms of training will be pretty basic just trying to progressively adding some weight (bodyweight and lifted weight) before we mix up the rep ranges more randomly and add extra small sessions. After a diet is the best time to start eating slightly more but still clean. That will be the biggest task for me I suppose. I'm not using anything steroid wise and as far as supplements I'm sticking to my staples : Zinc (cycling 100-300 mg a day), fish oil for the omega 3 (since I hate fish), whey protein to supplement shortcomings in protein, and where my research is at i'm doing some experimentation with free form leucine and arginine but with distinctly different timing from what you'd expect (extra leucine seems to be a waste around training time if you take whey, and arginine is actually counterproductive around training time - but more on that later in the log)
What I'm aiming at : I'm giving myself 1 year. I turn 32 in August, by age 33 I want to be well on my way to become a respectable bodybuilder. That means balance my physiqe out (finally fix my weak chest, stop slacking on upper leg training so my gigantic calves don't dwarf my very average legs, add serious rear del size), increase bodyweight by a significant amount (not specifying and keep in mind I'm going natural and for the first time ever i'm not drastically bulking up this winter - another health promise I made myself) and finally look reflective of my BF percentage (each summer I get below 7% and still I tend to look smoother than I should be largely because I'm not eating the right things at the right times). At that time I will evaluate, but it would be nice to look in the mirror then and say "by age 34 I'm going up on a stage". It's not impossible, I've worked with less and achieved more, but in those cases the people had the main quality - discipline - and only needed my knowledge, which is easy when i'm standing next to them. Now we are starting from the knowledge and I have to grow discipline before I can grow muscle. A daunting task.
What i'd love to get out of this log : Give and take. I want to take you guys through all the stuff I do on paper to get where i'm going and hopefully be able to teach people something. But I also realize i'm going to need a lot of feedback, motivation, tips and tricks to help maintain the lifestyle.
And when i'm totally back into things in a few weeks, i'd like to start a blog somewhere, start writing articles again about all things BB related : training, nutrition, supplementation, chemical enhancement, but also lifestyle and philosophy. That's also something I need a LOT of help on. I have no idea how to start a blog, where I would best go about it, how I can generate some traffic towards it, what sort of content people would like to see, and a lot of feedback on how to make it bigger and better.
I'm hoping I can find some of that help here ...
What's next on this thread :
1.Training Split
2. Example diet and supp schedule with reasonings
3.Impressions of the first days
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