mrsr05
TID Lady Member
- Apr 12, 2012
- 111
- 15
of coming off this past cycle is really messing with my head.... i havent been completely off in over 2 years...
whether it was that i was on var or winny or on a heavier course of supplements...
i am terrified of getting fat.. i am terrifiedof falling out of shape.. i am terrified of getting soft.... i know how unrealistic
these issues are provided i continue to do my part but i before i started training, i was the chubby girl... ALWAYS.. and the
memory of that haunts me....
i also know that my body needs a rest... i know my skin needs a rest...i know my insides need a rest.... ive sacrificed
some of my femininity to be a fbb...i have loved the result but i need to let my body equalize its hormone levels, blood levels
etc....
i am getting so depressed....grrrrrrrrrrrr ......
rant over...thanks for letting me purge...
i am off to take a nice hot bath with candles burning, van morrison in the background, and a glass of shiraz to hopefully wash
away the ugly thoughts paralyzing my psyche!!
whether it was that i was on var or winny or on a heavier course of supplements...
i am terrified of getting fat.. i am terrifiedof falling out of shape.. i am terrified of getting soft.... i know how unrealistic
these issues are provided i continue to do my part but i before i started training, i was the chubby girl... ALWAYS.. and the
memory of that haunts me....
i also know that my body needs a rest... i know my skin needs a rest...i know my insides need a rest.... ive sacrificed
some of my femininity to be a fbb...i have loved the result but i need to let my body equalize its hormone levels, blood levels
etc....
i am getting so depressed....grrrrrrrrrrrr ......
rant over...thanks for letting me purge...
i am off to take a nice hot bath with candles burning, van morrison in the background, and a glass of shiraz to hopefully wash
away the ugly thoughts paralyzing my psyche!!