lemmethinkonit
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- Oct 11, 2023
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Hey all,
First let me say that if this is entirely the wrong place to post this, my sincerest apologies - please tell me where I need to relocate this thread and I'll be glad to do so;
I can remember the day that I started thinking something felt "off" when I was walking. I had just moved home to Arkansas from Nashville TN where I'd experienced the most stressful and chaotic 9 months of my life. Something in my left leg felt like IT needed to "pop" but couldn't. It was late May of 2012. I went to numerous chiropractors, but there was no real relief from the vague feeling of "imbalance" and "weakness" on my left side. I eventually started noticing that my left side didn't quite have the muscular definition that my right side had.
I was eventually referred to a physical therapist that said that my ITB on my left side was tight and that it needed to be stretched. The PTs I worked with just gave me exercises to do and didn't really give me much personalized care. I had a hard time buying that my situation was ITBS because I never ran - ever. I've also learned since that "stretching" an ITB is a pointless pursuit. The rolling and exercises that the PTs gave me helped for a time, but only for a little while. As soon as I would stop doing the stretching and rolling, the symptoms would come back.
Fast forward through years of different attempts to identify the source of the problem via physical therapists, massage therapists, dry needling (only did this like twice and that was enough for me), acupuncture, chiropractic care, and counseling and I still haven't really been able to target why my left side is weaker in literally every dimension that my right side. It feels like, and looks like, my left abs won't engage and my left glute won't engage the way my right will. Literally everything on my right side feels fine. My left side feels fragile and weak.
The symptoms of whatever this condition is have waned in severity through different times in my life, but persisted all the same. In fall of 2021, when I was 30, I began barbell training with a personal trainer. I went from never having barbell squated or deadlifted to squating 330 & deadlifting 485 conventional for a 1RM within 1.5 years time. But my symptoms of imbalance still persist. When I lift heavy all of my work feels like it's being done by the right side of my body. My right lower back feels "worked" and I feel nothing in my left lower back. My left leg & knee feel really unstable and weak. My trainer just shrugs it off and says that every human isn't fully symmetrical and that I wouldn't be able to lift the weight I'm lifting if my muscles weren't firing properly. I feel like my lower right side of my back is doing ALL of the work when I'm squating and when I'm deadlifting. My trainer is a Starting Strength certified trainer, but they can't identify what is causing my imbalance. The imbalance seems to get worse when I'm mentally stressed making me think that it is Psychosomatic Disorder? Maybe? The symptoms seem to be gradually getting worse all the time. My left hip joint pops LOUDLY every morning when I start getting up and moving around.
When I bend over to grab the bar for a deadlift, some ligament in the back of my left knee "pops." It will also pop when I do RDLs. It sometimes pops when I'm doing squats. It makes me really nervous because my right side doesn't do that. As I'm typing this out, my pinky side of my left hand keeps going numb. I'm always "aware" of my left elbow, knee, and abs. My balance feels off and I am getting to where I dread training because I know it is just going to irritate my body and that my trainer isn't really going to be any help. My right side feels "heavier" than my left. I started therapy (counseling) when I started barbell training and my symptoms still persist. When I sit in a chair I feel like I slump to the right. I feel like if my left side were more in agreement / balance with my right side that pulling 500lbs+ and squating 400lbs+ would be no issue. I feel like I know that I am capable of getting much stronger and much more weight on the bar, but I don't know how to fix this imbalance and feel safe pursuing heavier weights.
I welcome and appreciate any questions that you may have about this and I apologize for any gaps I'm leaving in information in advance. Thank you for any help that you can send my way!
First let me say that if this is entirely the wrong place to post this, my sincerest apologies - please tell me where I need to relocate this thread and I'll be glad to do so;
I can remember the day that I started thinking something felt "off" when I was walking. I had just moved home to Arkansas from Nashville TN where I'd experienced the most stressful and chaotic 9 months of my life. Something in my left leg felt like IT needed to "pop" but couldn't. It was late May of 2012. I went to numerous chiropractors, but there was no real relief from the vague feeling of "imbalance" and "weakness" on my left side. I eventually started noticing that my left side didn't quite have the muscular definition that my right side had.
I was eventually referred to a physical therapist that said that my ITB on my left side was tight and that it needed to be stretched. The PTs I worked with just gave me exercises to do and didn't really give me much personalized care. I had a hard time buying that my situation was ITBS because I never ran - ever. I've also learned since that "stretching" an ITB is a pointless pursuit. The rolling and exercises that the PTs gave me helped for a time, but only for a little while. As soon as I would stop doing the stretching and rolling, the symptoms would come back.
Fast forward through years of different attempts to identify the source of the problem via physical therapists, massage therapists, dry needling (only did this like twice and that was enough for me), acupuncture, chiropractic care, and counseling and I still haven't really been able to target why my left side is weaker in literally every dimension that my right side. It feels like, and looks like, my left abs won't engage and my left glute won't engage the way my right will. Literally everything on my right side feels fine. My left side feels fragile and weak.
The symptoms of whatever this condition is have waned in severity through different times in my life, but persisted all the same. In fall of 2021, when I was 30, I began barbell training with a personal trainer. I went from never having barbell squated or deadlifted to squating 330 & deadlifting 485 conventional for a 1RM within 1.5 years time. But my symptoms of imbalance still persist. When I lift heavy all of my work feels like it's being done by the right side of my body. My right lower back feels "worked" and I feel nothing in my left lower back. My left leg & knee feel really unstable and weak. My trainer just shrugs it off and says that every human isn't fully symmetrical and that I wouldn't be able to lift the weight I'm lifting if my muscles weren't firing properly. I feel like my lower right side of my back is doing ALL of the work when I'm squating and when I'm deadlifting. My trainer is a Starting Strength certified trainer, but they can't identify what is causing my imbalance. The imbalance seems to get worse when I'm mentally stressed making me think that it is Psychosomatic Disorder? Maybe? The symptoms seem to be gradually getting worse all the time. My left hip joint pops LOUDLY every morning when I start getting up and moving around.
When I bend over to grab the bar for a deadlift, some ligament in the back of my left knee "pops." It will also pop when I do RDLs. It sometimes pops when I'm doing squats. It makes me really nervous because my right side doesn't do that. As I'm typing this out, my pinky side of my left hand keeps going numb. I'm always "aware" of my left elbow, knee, and abs. My balance feels off and I am getting to where I dread training because I know it is just going to irritate my body and that my trainer isn't really going to be any help. My right side feels "heavier" than my left. I started therapy (counseling) when I started barbell training and my symptoms still persist. When I sit in a chair I feel like I slump to the right. I feel like if my left side were more in agreement / balance with my right side that pulling 500lbs+ and squating 400lbs+ would be no issue. I feel like I know that I am capable of getting much stronger and much more weight on the bar, but I don't know how to fix this imbalance and feel safe pursuing heavier weights.
I welcome and appreciate any questions that you may have about this and I apologize for any gaps I'm leaving in information in advance. Thank you for any help that you can send my way!