Aug 27, 2018 Hi Everyone. Well, this is happening...my rotator cuff repair surgery is scheduled for 830aCT, this Friday, 8/31. I have been on these boards for a cpl years and more active this past year. I like the anonymity of it all. It's like warm blanket. FYI....it is my right shoulder; I am right handed. Just did my first bodybuilding competition this year on 3/31/18. Shoulder was bothering me in prep in Dec, 2017, so went to see my sports med ortho doc and he suggested an MRI. Test come back as a full thickness tear in my supraspinatus. Got a PRP injection in Jan, 2018. Got through my prep and competed. After prep, was continuing to lift as I have a few goals now and areas to work on. Shoulder started to bother me some more. Went back to the same doc and he recommended surgery to repair it. Well, when it comes to surgery, I want to seek out others opinions. So I met with 2 other docs. Both said same thing, surgery to repair. So I researched and read, and read some more and researched some more. Then I resounded to the fact that in order to get back I would need this surgery. I currently have pain every day, numbing in my one hand, trouble sleeping, every day use has diminished due to pain and weakness. Not to mention the effects it has had on lifting at the gym. A local fellow female bodybuilder had shoulder surgery last year also, the same surgeon is doing mine. She has made full recovery (took her awhile), but she is also young lol. My surgeon has been doing this for about 30 years and I asked him how many he has performed, he said about 13,000. While I know that this type of surgery is very common, i'm still bummed AF about it. About me: 47 years young, female, life lifter just competed in 1st bodybuilding competition, but got the bug and want to do more. My plan is: Take a full week completely off gym and work. The 2nd week, I may end up working from home (I'm an IT Project Manager by trade, so just need my laptop). When I go back to gym, I plan to obviously do legs only/light cardio (depending upon on jarring it is on my shoulder). I do not want to push it at all, I want to COMPLETELY heal, so I will be listening to my body. I will evaluate how I feel week to week. When I feel up to it, I may train my one good arm, because I've read about how if you do that, it helps with the bad one. Anybody have any motivating books to read while I'm down? I don't want this surgery to play head games with me (well it already has lol), but any recommendations for some reading materials/movies on Netflix, etc. While i'm resting and healing, I want to make sure I also work on my mental state and healing. That is just as important. Because i'll be facing some significant muscle loss (the muscle I worked so hard in building up <sad face>), i'll need to work on this aspect of the mental game the atrophy is going to play with my head. I think that is the worst part of this surgery i'm worried about actually. The physical is easy...do what doc says and go to PT when it is time, etc. When I had knee surgery 8 yrs ago, I was non weight bearing for 6 weeks, my left leg atrophied terribly...but you know what it also bounced back. So...wish me luck everyone! I'll check back into this post all week up until the surgery. Then probably post in here next week. Will see. So you won't lose me just yet y'all!