I know this isn't really the place for this but I'm just so overwhelmed and starting to think my goal isn't going to be possible anytime soon. I'm 27 years old, 6 foot 195. Started working out in high school but didn't work out much at all after fora few years later till I slowly got more and more serious about it and have been very serious about it for the past few years now. I've been thinking about anabolics more and more over the years but now I'm 100% sure I rwally want to start using them this winter so I've been trying to research where to get them but the more research I do the more hopeless I become. I read that it's not possible to get legit products online and that you should make friends in a community and gain trust to find a source. I live in a small town and workout in my basement so there is no local community for me to go to. If anyone can give me any kind of help or advance to get me started in the right direction it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for your time.