Okay, not to point and say this, but you have no reason to be using steroids of any kind till you get your food intake in order.
This meal plan is weak, for a girl, not filled with whole grains and lots of nutritious protein for a man, if you want to get to 180/185 and lean then you seriously need to bump up your calories, EACH MEAL should be around 400-600 calories each X 6 meals per day.
I'm just shocked, a rice cake with peanut butter, that's around maybe 250 calories, and next to nothing maybe 3 grams of protein.
Half of a protein shake for breakfast, before the gym, seriously?? That's maybe again a few grams, again, seriously, how do you have energy to even work out.
YOU should have a caloric intake of 30grams of protein, 40grams of Carbs, and 6-10 grams of fat per meal X 6 meals a day.
If you ate right, your 5 cycles would have been 1 or 2 and you would have been at your goal. I'd seriously suggest you not use anything till your diet is in order. AND when you can follow that nutrition plan and be consistant with that schedule, then use the test and tren, but not before till that Food plan of yours gets fixed.