Kluso’s not dead yet!

[Kluso]

Gonna start this log even though it’s bad luck. Every board I’ve ever had a log on went away. But I need to make myself accountable and I like to be able to look back on what I have done in the past. What worked. What didn’t work. There will be lost of personal ramblings about my life as well as supplement use and maybe some training.

I have been in a rut since May. Before May I was in the gym at least 3 days a week. Now I’m lucky to make it in one day a week. In May I was in best shape of my life. I cut for vacation and looked good. I still look good. Haven’t gained any bodyfat. I still eat ok. And definitely taking berberine, dihydroberberine from doublewoods to be exact, has helped with that. I’m on 200mg test per week of a test cyp/ undecanoate blend. My weight has dropped significantly since going to the gym less and eating less. Always been a hard gainer. If I could eat more I would be way bigger by now. That’s always been my Kryptonite. So starting weight is about 178 pounds. I’m around 10%bf I assume. Been a hot summer and I work outside a lot. Literally burning off the calories. I used to make sure I ate at least 200 grams of protein per day. I haven’t been keeping track but I know I’m not eating as much protein. Probably more like 100 grams now and that is main reason I have lost weight I think. That and not going to gym as much. Obviously.

Plan is to start a cycle after I am recovered from surgery. I’m having a procedure done the 26th of Sept that will hopefully work and I will be able to pee like a normal person for first time in over 10 years. For those that don’t know. I have to insert a catheter to pee now. Muscles don’t work and doctors have no clue why. End of September they are gonna insert two wires near my tailbone to the nerves that control the bladder muscle. Connected to the wires will be a battery pack that has an adjustment on it. I assume it will adjust the intensity of the signal. It will be secured somehow to my back. I will have a remote control to push. They are gonna send me home with ut for a few days to see if it works. If it does then I will schedule another surgery where they install the whole thing under my skin like a pacemaker. So hopefully it will work. Having to use catheters has been a real pain. Not just literally. Lol. I cant just do spit of the moment things anymore. I have to make sure I have them with me. And have enough for a trip or vacation. I have to make sure there is running water and soap wherever I go. I have learned some tricks around that for emergency but you get the idea. It’s an added stress to my life I could live without.

So after surgery or surgeries I will be starting a cycle. Which gives me time to order some things. I have been wanting to run this blend of test cyp/ npp/ dbol with some primo for a long time now. That plus some good hgh. That will get me back in the game for sure! Knowing I have this procedure/ minor surgery coming and possibly/ hopefully a second one I’m not starting anything yet.

Right now my focus is on getting to bed earlier and getting into gym more consistently. And eating better. Less chips and more protein. Lol. I didn’t even go to gym once last week. I did go twice the week before. But week before that zero days. I’m averaging about once a week right now. It’s pathetic. Right now I’m going to bed around 10:30-11pm. I have to get up at 5am for work. 4 am if I’m going to the gym. I have to get to bed earlier! That’s first step. I used to be able to get away with 4-5hrs of sleep. Not anymore. When I went on vacation in May I realized just how burned out I really was.

This log is about making me accountable. If I write it down here I will be more inclined to get it done. And hopefully get my gym life back. Anyways. Long enough first post. Lol.

 

[beefnewton]

Hard gainer, my ass. You are like a long-lost twin of Genetic Freak.

That is a wild you have had to adapt to that condition, but I guess what choice do you have? Every day, multiple times a day... a catheter... wow.

As little as the earthing/grounding sheet helped me, you should try it. You have far more to gain with sleep/rest being so valuable to you right now.

 

[rawdeal]

Klu, you never got gone, but you were missed when you were less active. Looking forward to everything you wanna share with us. I'm never sure how those smilie things might be interpreted ... wanted to give your op the double hearts thing or the laughing version, but you were talking about your dick here so I played it safe with the "Like."

This should be a great thread.

 

[Yano]

God Bless , its good to see ya !!

keeping that log will help , I know it does me , thats mainly why i do it , discipline and accountability.

 

[Heady Muscle]

Subbed for the fun. And learnings.

 

[Wilson6]

"I have to insert a catheter to pee now."

I cannot imagine having to do that multiple times a day.

 

[MR. BMJ]

You got this bud, and congrats on the surgery to possibly improve matters. Like Wilson stated, I can't imagine having to use a catheter like you have, just that alone would be taxing on my ass and cause lazy days, lol. If you are holding on the leanness, the rest will come back super quick.

 

[Glycomann]

I hope the surgery fix works buddy. Good luck on the comeback.

 

[kid666]

I hope the surgery goes well for you bud.

 

[Kluso]

Dam. Thanks everyone! I been using a catheter for over 10 years now. I know it sounds bad. And it was at first but I’m mostly used to it now. It’s more of an annoyance now. It also causes me to not stay hydrated well because the more water I drink the more I have to pee, obviously. So that’s always hurt my BB and would be nice to not worry about also. But enough about that bull crap. I’ll update when I get the test procedure done. I’ll be off work for a few days and have plenty of time to fill you in.

I made it to the gym once this week. My workouts are pretty pathetic too. I started with 10min of HITT on the bike for legs. Hammer strength isolateral rows for back. Weighted dip machine for chest. Preacher curls for biceps and cable extensions for triceps. My arms and legs are most noticeable in looking smaller. I was definitely sore the next day. Since I’m only going once a week or so I’m doing full body. Switching up the exercises each time.

To @beefnewton, not even close to @genetic freak! If that man didn’t do as much cardio as he likes to do he would be twice as big as he is considering how much he abuses himself in the gym. I’m just lucky to have half way decent genetics that let me get by with half the effort as him. If I could lift and eat like GF maybe I could take him. But he would literally run circles around me afterwards. Thank you though! Appreciate the compliment but I’m not even in the same league buddy! That man is a beast! He’s always been my inspiration to be better ever since I met him.

To @rawdeal, thanks! Yeah, it is hard to pick an emoji sometimes. Especially after awkward personal posts like that. Lol. I do the same. I definitely don’t give a shit what you guys know about me. I often find myself spilling my guts out to you guys. And I can’t thank you all enough for just listening!

To @Yano, thanks my man! I had been trying to fallow your log I just haven’t had time lately. Always liked it! With your videos too. I don’t know how your body hasn’t broken yet. Haha

To @Heady Muscle, not sure how much you gonna learn but maybe laughing at my sorry ass will brighten your day. That’s my hope anyways. Haha

To @Wilson6, it honestly was devastating when I had to start using them. But sometimes you have to do what you have to do. The gym definitely helped me get over it!

Skip this section if you don’t want to hear about my bladder issue. My bladder was twice the size on a normal bladder. I could still pee but I was only peeing what the pressure had bulked up from bladder stretched out. My bladder would still be half full after going. Bladder was pushing on my intestines and causing me digestive issues. I actually went to doctors about my stomach when he asked me if I had to pee. I said nope. He said well your bladder seems very full and is pushing on everything. If you got into a car accident your bladder could rupture from the seatbelt. So that scared me enough to do something about it. Urologists said hopefully after using catheter for a little while your bladder size will go back to normal and I could stop using them. That never happened. Did a bunch of tests and my bladder muscle has like 10% function. This device I’m gonna try at the end of the month basically gives the muscle the signal our brain should give it. A lot of older people have issues with losing that signal also. But if the muscle itself is actually damaged then it probably won’t work. I remember being in a bad car accident when I was 20 or so. Head on collision. I was lucky as hell and only had a bruised knee and bruised kidney they said because I was pissing blood. But I remember something didn’t feel right after that when I would pee. Think that’s when it started. I think the muscle is damaged but that’s me being a pessimist. Hopefully im wrong. I’ve had an mri done of my lower back when I had sciatica the first time and I asked the doctor if he could see anything that might cause my bladder issue. Like maybe that nerve or disc connected to that nerve looked damaged or compressed. He said no. All looked normal. So my negative ass doesn’t think this procedure is gonna work. And I don’t think they do bladder transplants yet. I just don’t see myself being able to do this when I’m 80. And what I don’t understand is why I can’t even piss myself when I have to go real bad. You would think It would start coming out when the pressure built up. But it won’t. I’ve tried waiting till it felt like my bladder was gonna explode and I would push and maybe a drop would come out. It’s like the muscle that pushes doesn’t work anymore and the muscle that holds it in is locked up. And these doctors have no answers. They’re morons! And don’t get me started on my issue with getting the catheter in sometimes. That will be a story for another day. This is already turning into a ramble no gives a shit about here. Lol.

To @MR. BMJ, thanks for the encouragement! And good point about staying lean. I do take berberine every day to help. I’ve never been a big eater though. Only time I could eat a lot was after a big cut on no to low carbs. I could not get full! Man, if I could eat like that all the time I would be huge! And idk what is up with my elbows. Most people have shoulder or knee problems. Not me. It’s my elbows! Well, and my back. But every time I lift now my elbows hurt. Even after giving them a long break. But hopefully some npp will help. Haha. When I have my comeback!

To @Glycomann, thanks! I’m trying to stay positive. Definitely harder some days.

To @kid666, thanks buddy!

 

[beefnewton]

So if it does work (and the muscle isn't too damaged), is it possible the muscle can get stronger once it starts getting a better signal? I'm being an optimist, that you did have a nerve issue way long ago that just caused the muscle to atrophy, and maybe a restoration of the signal can help it get stronger and pull it out of that theoretical bottom of the well where it's too weak but not getting proper stimulus. Kind of sounds like that's the intent, and I just reinvented the whole point of the procedure.

 

[Yano]

Dam. Thanks everyone! I been using a catheter for over 10 years now. I know it sounds bad. And it was at first but I’m mostly used to it now. It’s more of an annoyance now. It also causes me to not stay hydrated well because the more water I drink the more I have to pee, obviously. So that’s always hurt my BB and would be nice to not worry about also. But enough about that bull crap. I’ll update when I get the test procedure done. I’ll be off work for a few days and have plenty of time to fill you in.

I made it to the gym once this week. My workouts are pretty pathetic too. I started with 10min of HITT on the bike for legs. Hammer strength isolateral rows for back. Weighted dip machine for chest. Preacher curls for biceps and cable extensions for triceps. My arms and legs are most noticeable in looking smaller. I was definitely sore the next day. Since I’m only going once a week or so I’m doing full body. Switching up the exercises each time.

To @beefnewton, not even close to @genetic freak! If that man didn’t do as much cardio as he likes to do he would be twice as big as he is considering how much he abuses himself in the gym. I’m just lucky to have half way decent genetics that let me get by with half the effort as him. If I could lift and eat like GF maybe I could take him. But he would literally run circles around me afterwards. Thank you though! Appreciate the compliment but I’m not even in the same league buddy! That man is a beast! He’s always been my inspiration to be better ever since I met him.

To @rawdeal, thanks! Yeah, it is hard to pick an emoji sometimes. Especially after awkward personal posts like that. Lol. I do the same. I definitely don’t give a shit what you guys know about me. I often find myself spilling my guts out to you guys. And I can’t thank you all enough for just listening!

To @Yano, thanks my man! I had been trying to fallow your log I just haven’t had time lately. Always liked it! With your videos too. I don’t know how your body hasn’t broken yet. Haha

To @Heady Muscle, not sure how much you gonna learn but maybe laughing at my sorry ass will brighten your day. That’s my hope anyways. Haha

To @Wilson6, it honestly was devastating when I had to start using them. But sometimes you have to do what you have to do. The gym definitely helped me get over it!

Skip this section if you don’t want to hear about my bladder issue. My bladder was twice the size on a normal bladder. I could still pee but I was only peeing what the pressure had bulked up from bladder stretched out. My bladder would still be half full after going. Bladder was pushing on my intestines and causing me digestive issues. I actually went to doctors about my stomach when he asked me if I had to pee. I said nope. He said well your bladder seems very full and is pushing on everything. If you got into a car accident your bladder could rupture from the seatbelt. So that scared me enough to do something about it. Urologists said hopefully after using catheter for a little while your bladder size will go back to normal and I could stop using them. That never happened. Did a bunch of tests and my bladder muscle has like 10% function. This device I’m gonna try at the end of the month basically gives the muscle the signal our brain should give it. A lot of older people have issues with losing that signal also. But if the muscle itself is actually damaged then it probably won’t work. I remember being in a bad car accident when I was 20 or so. Head on collision. I was lucky as hell and only had a bruised knee and bruised kidney they said because I was pissing blood. But I remember something didn’t feel right after that when I would pee. Think that’s when it started. I think the muscle is damaged but that’s me being a pessimist. Hopefully im wrong. I’ve had an mri done of my lower back when I had sciatica the first time and I asked the doctor if he could see anything that might cause my bladder issue. Like maybe that nerve or disc connected to that nerve looked damaged or compressed. He said no. All looked normal. So my negative ass doesn’t think this procedure is gonna work. And I don’t think they do bladder transplants yet. I just don’t see myself being able to do this when I’m 80. And what I don’t understand is why I can’t even piss myself when I have to go real bad. You would think It would start coming out when the pressure built up. But it won’t. I’ve tried waiting till it felt like my bladder was gonna explode and I would push and maybe a drop would come out. It’s like the muscle that pushes doesn’t work anymore and the muscle that holds it in is locked up. And these doctors have no answers. They’re morons! And don’t get me started on my issue with getting the catheter in sometimes. That will be a story for another day. This is already turning into a ramble no gives a shit about here. Lol.

To @MR. BMJ, thanks for the encouragement! And good point about staying lean. I do take berberine every day to help. I’ve never been a big eater though. Only time I could eat a lot was after a big cut on no to low carbs. I could not get full! Man, if I could eat like that all the time I would be huge! And idk what is up with my elbows. Most people have shoulder or knee problems. Not me. It’s my elbows! Well, and my back. But every time I lift now my elbows hurt. Even after giving them a long break. But hopefully some npp will help. Haha. When I have my comeback!

To @Glycomann, thanks! I’m trying to stay positive. Definitely harder some days.

To @kid666, thanks buddy!

All i can say about catheters is condom style can be more comfortable but are weird getting used to , ,and if you use a regular style look for the ones that have beveled tip and holes way less scratching , i dont know if you can use a whistle tip those will drain faster and coude tips have a bend in em ... the things you learn when you have a stroke