Update on the cancer battle. I’ve known quite a few people that have had cancer and I watched my mom die in front of me as well as another friend. Well, I don’t think I’m dying. I don’t think that I could possibly understood how fucked up. It is dealing with this shit.
I’m going into week five of seven with radiation Monday through Friday every week And double dose chemo once every third Tuesday. The chemo is almost indescribable. The nausea is so punishing and until you find the right anti-nausea medicine it’s in escapable and you are defenseless against it. It was the fifth medicine Compazine that finally helped and it was an online brother that pointed me in the right direction. Fortunately, my doctors were amenable to a phone call and they immediately sent the script to local pharmacy, but I was at the end of 10 days of psychotic nausea before I finally started taking it but now it seems to work and work even better in conjunction with Zofran. This Tuesday was my second dose of chemo that hole process last six hours and now that I’m not really nauseous because of the medicine it’s clear how gnarly the brain fog feels more like brain damage to me. The radiation on the other hand builds up piece by piece burn you more and more i’ve hocked up pieces of skin out of my throat. I have to take pills one at a time because of how inflamed my throat is when you go to sleep it dries up and then when you wake up it rips apart, and you’re spitting blood for hours it burns a lot but other than all that it burns up your salivary glands so you’re not making any spit that doesn’t protect your teeth so you gotta do fluoride treatments so you don’t lose your teeth and you can’t taste any of the foods that you used to love taste like shit water right now taste like a mouthful of butter I shit you not and not just butter like the mouth feel everything texture. It’s weird and that’s the way it is.
Now, outside of my wine in like a little bitch, I’m doing pretty good. The doctors are shocked that I haven’t lost any weight that I’ve actually put on 4 ounces this one dietitian who’s been doing it for 25 years said she’s never seen anything like an in her life. I said I don’t give a shit. I’m forcing the food down. That is whatever I can eat which is a ton of eggs at least dozen a day and yogurt whole milk, organic yogurt I can do Matcha lattes they soothe my throat. I wouldn’t wish this shit on anybody else. I’m just taking it day by day and praying that my recovery gives me back some of the things that I’ve lost so far especially my taste. Hope you guys are doing great. Just thought I’d give you an update and let you know that I’m still kicking.