Halo’s old guy comeback journal 2024

[hawkeye]

We've already talked, brother, but as you know, all you gotta do is pick up the phone and I got you. We've known each other for quite some time and you will be in my thoughts and prayers. However, I have zero doubt you will make these health concerns your bitch. Keep me posted.

 

[Halo]

Update on the cancer battle. I’ve known quite a few people that have had cancer and I watched my mom die in front of me as well as another friend. Well, I don’t think I’m dying. I don’t think that I could possibly understood how fucked up. It is dealing with this shit.

I’m going into week five of seven with radiation Monday through Friday every week And double dose chemo once every third Tuesday. The chemo is almost indescribable. The nausea is so punishing and until you find the right anti-nausea medicine it’s in escapable and you are defenseless against it. It was the fifth medicine Compazine that finally helped and it was an online brother that pointed me in the right direction. Fortunately, my doctors were amenable to a phone call and they immediately sent the script to local pharmacy, but I was at the end of 10 days of psychotic nausea before I finally started taking it but now it seems to work and work even better in conjunction with Zofran. This Tuesday was my second dose of chemo that hole process last six hours and now that I’m not really nauseous because of the medicine it’s clear how gnarly the brain fog feels more like brain damage to me. The radiation on the other hand builds up piece by piece burn you more and more i’ve hocked up pieces of skin out of my throat. I have to take pills one at a time because of how inflamed my throat is when you go to sleep it dries up and then when you wake up it rips apart, and you’re spitting blood for hours it burns a lot but other than all that it burns up your salivary glands so you’re not making any spit that doesn’t protect your teeth so you gotta do fluoride treatments so you don’t lose your teeth and you can’t taste any of the foods that you used to love taste like shit water right now taste like a mouthful of butter I shit you not and not just butter like the mouth feel everything texture. It’s weird and that’s the way it is.

Now, outside of my wine in like a little bitch, I’m doing pretty good. The doctors are shocked that I haven’t lost any weight that I’ve actually put on 4 ounces this one dietitian who’s been doing it for 25 years said she’s never seen anything like an in her life. I said I don’t give a shit. I’m forcing the food down. That is whatever I can eat which is a ton of eggs at least dozen a day and yogurt whole milk, organic yogurt I can do Matcha lattes they soothe my throat. I wouldn’t wish this shit on anybody else. I’m just taking it day by day and praying that my recovery gives me back some of the things that I’ve lost so far especially my taste. Hope you guys are doing great. Just thought I’d give you an update and let you know that I’m still kicking.

 

[rawdeal]

. . . . Now, outside of my wine in like a little bitch, I’m doing pretty good. The doctors are shocked that I haven’t lost any weight that I’ve actually put on 4 ounces this one dietitian who’s been doing it for 25 years said she’s never seen anything like an in her life. I said I don’t give a shit. I’m forcing the food down. That is whatever I can eat which is a ton of eggs at least dozen a day and yogurt whole milk, organic yogurt I can do Matcha lattes they soothe my throat. I wouldn’t wish this shit on anybody else. I’m just taking it day by day and praying that my recovery gives me back some of the things that I’ve lost so far especially my taste. Hope you guys are doing great. Just thought I’d give you an update and let you know that I’m still kicking.

I don't hear whining like a little bitch in your written voice, Halo, I hear ANGER and DEFIANCE !
Sounds like in his post above, @hawkeye already knew who was going to make what his bitch. Hate that it's been so rough so far, but looking forward to when you resume the Gym portion of your Log AND begin wrass'ling all those Rhodesian Ridgebacks of yours again.

 

[Yano]

God Bless man ! Keep up the good fight , I've still got ya in my prayers.

 

[hawkeye]

It's a battle, and a battle that in many ways you walk alone, but as you can see, brother, you got an army walking with and behind you. I'm a phone call away. And I think I can speak for most, you have plenty that will be there in a minute if you need someone to carry you when you are struggling. We got you, brother. As I just texted you, your expiration date ain't up yet. Let's get this!

 

[Halo]

I thought it was time to give you guys an update if you’re interested. I’m still in the fight somewhere along the way I was misinformed that week three and four were going to be the worst seems week six and seven have exceeded expectations and are literally beating the shit out of me. I think I didn’t really understand the magnitude of pain that can come from being put under a radiation accelerator five days a week and having the same exact spots hit every day, causing sores in my throat that can’t even swallow spit.

I finally started to lose some weight loss 20 pounds Not bad compared to my two friends who have had the same cancer one loss 70 and the other one lost 130 I’ve forced myself to eat whole milk yogurt and then for some reason I was able to get down shrimp and lobster doesn’t make any sense to me either trust me so I ate them as long as I could, but I haven’t eaten for about 10 days now I’ve been getting bags of IV every day to keep me hydrated. I refuse to get feeding tube. I only have one day of treatment left and then we’ll see how it goes.

I don’t think this is the kind of thing that someone could’ve described to me in any meaningful way that would’ve really driven home the point of how difficult this struggle is gonna be. Needless to say it’s something I wish for no one ever anywhere. Whatever have to go through. I can’t wait to be on the other side of Monday and start the healing part of this journey. I hope that the sores in my throat heal up quickly and I will hopefully get back in the gym sooner than later. It looks like the surgery they did on my neck. Did some damage to either tendons or nerves. I lost a lot of range of motion in my left shoulder But everything else seems to be going OK I appreciate all the prayers and well wishes and I can’t wait to be back putting plates on bars instead of talking about this crazy shit. I really appreciate your guys support throughout this journey.

 

[rawdeal]

You are amazing, Halo. For a change words fail me, but I'll try two:
Role Model.
Please update us whenever you need to vent a little.

 

[Glycomann]

God speed your recovery.