MR. BMJ
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I didn't really know how I was going to post on this, thought about it a lot since the time a bunch of us found out a few days ago from his wife. It's been on our minds 24/7 since we found out, mine for sure, even with the ruckus of having two young kids, lol.
This guy was our MF'ing hero for so many years and for so many reasons. He was an even better e-friend. Only you guys here would understand the bond of closeness of not meeting somebody in real life, yet having that friendship, much like a blood-brother, but probably even stronger than that with most of us.
This one really hits hard, it fukking sucks. Yes, there is a ton of positive, of which we can dwell on for years and the rest of our lives, but man, this grieving phase really hits hard for many of us.
GF, IF HE LIKED YOU (LOL!), would give the shirt off his back to help anybody. I think it's apparent if you watched the YT video of him that our friend Heady posted. If not, then hopefully by his participation here, as well as WCBB before that.
I've known GF, as moderators, since like 2008/09, IIRC, from WCBB. He was also a Mod over at GotFina years prior. He had this ability to read you instantly. If he knew something was wrong with me, whatever it may be, he'd hit me up in a PM and see how i was doing. I'm not sure why I haven't done this more often myself, but it's a goal of mine now. He was direct, and i loved that. You either like that from somebody or you don't - i've always respected that....of course, when done in good faith and respectfulness. He told you how it was, and his opinion, take it or leave it. But at the end of the day, he'd be the first to support you and be there for you. The guy was the real deal, super unique, and what you seen posted or from IG, was him real as hell in the flesh. I remember each time he deployed, he'd ask Basskiller to remove his status (like a true vet would), in case he didn't make it back. We'd have people asking why he was gone, or if there were problems going on internally, or if he was a source.....but no, just GF privately doing his service for the Country as a marine without any publicity. I'd message BK a lot between/during that period asking if he heard anything, but of course, he'd say no. And just like magic, out of nowhere, he'd pop back like he didn't miss a beat. He'd pop in to say hello, then take a good period off to destress, for reasons he noted in Heady's YT video. Some of those times were long, but he made his way back to us each time. These forums were a way for him to live his life and put it together, much like the gym.
A bunch of us WCBB guys have this text group we all post in, and GF would respond almost instantly on each person's post. I'll tell you, it's a void, and it sucks because we wait for those messages, but yet they are no longer there. We are a solid group regardless (except when Frigg and Jipped send naked picks together, lol), and we will live on, probably even stronger after this, but he was a huge part of our e-lives and chatter, and it will be missed.
let me end with this....GF was the perfect friend, husband, father, marine....even through any imperfections that he lived with. Today a wife and 2 children mourn the death of their husband and father, and my utmost sincerity and prayers go to them.
He was loved dearly, and he will be missed even more. The warrior and his burdens have laid to rest for the next chapter of life.
Here is the poem he spoke of on the video Heady posted. He wrote it many years back. He was speaking not only of other soldiers, but himself.
"When looking at group of soldiers getting ready for battle Heraclitus once said, "Out of every hundred soldiers, 10 should not even be there, 80 are just targets, 9 are the real fighters and we should be lucky to have them, as they will carry the battle. Ah, but one is the true warrior and he will bring the others back". The warrior shoulders a burden not felt by the others. He is responsible for bringing the others back and often is unsuccessful, as people die in combat. No matter how hard the warrior tries to prevent it, death is a reality of war. However, that does not change the warrior’s burden. When the warrior fails, he carries the guilt and the shame in his heart. He cannot stop, he cannot grieve, he must continue to fight, as the others rely on him, the warrior’s burden. The warrior receives knew soldiers and the cycle starts over. Each cycle amplifies the warrior's burden, as he carries more and more guilt and shame. Eventually the warrior's burden is so great he breaks. His time to grieve is now, but the pain is so terrible he buries it deep in his soul, the warrior's burden. The warrior attempts to control his emotions, as he does not want those depending on his strength to share his pain, but he is unsure how long he can go on. The warrior's burden continues. That warrior is me."
RIP Lee, love you brother!
This guy was our MF'ing hero for so many years and for so many reasons. He was an even better e-friend. Only you guys here would understand the bond of closeness of not meeting somebody in real life, yet having that friendship, much like a blood-brother, but probably even stronger than that with most of us.
This one really hits hard, it fukking sucks. Yes, there is a ton of positive, of which we can dwell on for years and the rest of our lives, but man, this grieving phase really hits hard for many of us.
GF, IF HE LIKED YOU (LOL!), would give the shirt off his back to help anybody. I think it's apparent if you watched the YT video of him that our friend Heady posted. If not, then hopefully by his participation here, as well as WCBB before that.
I've known GF, as moderators, since like 2008/09, IIRC, from WCBB. He was also a Mod over at GotFina years prior. He had this ability to read you instantly. If he knew something was wrong with me, whatever it may be, he'd hit me up in a PM and see how i was doing. I'm not sure why I haven't done this more often myself, but it's a goal of mine now. He was direct, and i loved that. You either like that from somebody or you don't - i've always respected that....of course, when done in good faith and respectfulness. He told you how it was, and his opinion, take it or leave it. But at the end of the day, he'd be the first to support you and be there for you. The guy was the real deal, super unique, and what you seen posted or from IG, was him real as hell in the flesh. I remember each time he deployed, he'd ask Basskiller to remove his status (like a true vet would), in case he didn't make it back. We'd have people asking why he was gone, or if there were problems going on internally, or if he was a source.....but no, just GF privately doing his service for the Country as a marine without any publicity. I'd message BK a lot between/during that period asking if he heard anything, but of course, he'd say no. And just like magic, out of nowhere, he'd pop back like he didn't miss a beat. He'd pop in to say hello, then take a good period off to destress, for reasons he noted in Heady's YT video. Some of those times were long, but he made his way back to us each time. These forums were a way for him to live his life and put it together, much like the gym.
A bunch of us WCBB guys have this text group we all post in, and GF would respond almost instantly on each person's post. I'll tell you, it's a void, and it sucks because we wait for those messages, but yet they are no longer there. We are a solid group regardless (except when Frigg and Jipped send naked picks together, lol), and we will live on, probably even stronger after this, but he was a huge part of our e-lives and chatter, and it will be missed.
let me end with this....GF was the perfect friend, husband, father, marine....even through any imperfections that he lived with. Today a wife and 2 children mourn the death of their husband and father, and my utmost sincerity and prayers go to them.
He was loved dearly, and he will be missed even more. The warrior and his burdens have laid to rest for the next chapter of life.
Here is the poem he spoke of on the video Heady posted. He wrote it many years back. He was speaking not only of other soldiers, but himself.
"When looking at group of soldiers getting ready for battle Heraclitus once said, "Out of every hundred soldiers, 10 should not even be there, 80 are just targets, 9 are the real fighters and we should be lucky to have them, as they will carry the battle. Ah, but one is the true warrior and he will bring the others back". The warrior shoulders a burden not felt by the others. He is responsible for bringing the others back and often is unsuccessful, as people die in combat. No matter how hard the warrior tries to prevent it, death is a reality of war. However, that does not change the warrior’s burden. When the warrior fails, he carries the guilt and the shame in his heart. He cannot stop, he cannot grieve, he must continue to fight, as the others rely on him, the warrior’s burden. The warrior receives knew soldiers and the cycle starts over. Each cycle amplifies the warrior's burden, as he carries more and more guilt and shame. Eventually the warrior's burden is so great he breaks. His time to grieve is now, but the pain is so terrible he buries it deep in his soul, the warrior's burden. The warrior attempts to control his emotions, as he does not want those depending on his strength to share his pain, but he is unsure how long he can go on. The warrior's burden continues. That warrior is me."
RIP Lee, love you brother!
Huge loss for all. Life is fragile.
