Last year my long term g/f (over 2 years) passed away unexpectedly (suicide). I saw it happen and I've never felt so much pain. Its been 9 months and I've started dating again. I still have dreams about her. Sometimes I have good dreams where I see her and do things with her. Other dreams I wouldn't say are bad but I wake up sweating pretty bad. Have to take my shirt off and I don't fall back asleep right away. I still sleep with my girlfriends shirt. Hell I still refer to her as my girlfriend. The girl I date know knows what happened but I don't talk to her about my dreams or the feelings i still have for my ex. Never spoke to a therapist as I never felt better when I've done that before for other things in my life. Honestly I've become kinda a dick in certain situations. Friends have told me to tone it down.
I enjoy the company of the new girl but I never think it will be a long term relationship. Don't know if its me holding back or me not honestly looking at the relationship.
When she passed I would drink often and do cocaine. Party everyday. Had that if I survive I survive and if i die lucky me. I don't feel this way anymore.
What helped the members here get over the grief of a loved one?