hello TID members! as my title states, no one is immune, to anxiety and/or depression.I have spent the last 12 years battling anxiety as well as bouts of depression.In my younger years i would see the commercials about these disorders and scoff at the whole idea..you know, thats an excuse, attention seeker,just cheer up, etc..a few weeks ago my wife mentioned to me I seemed to be 'changing', if you will.My whole persona changed and my passions mattered no more! I didn't even notice these huge changes until it was brought to my attention.Sometimes it takes a loved one or friend to notice subtle or abrupt changes.Panic attacks are a thing of the past and my first one 12 years ago opened my eyes and mind to these very serious issues. I was driving to work and lost all sense of where i was, i couldn't breath and thought i was having a heart attack, i pulled my car over and a construction crew called an ambulance..from that moment i was introduced into the world of anxiety and depression.It did not happen overnight mind you.My doctor explained it to me like this..'when certain things happen,say stressful life events, you deal with it, then your sub conscious 'files' it away under useless information, or so you think, these events stay with you, tucked away in the corner of your mind, and all these buried stresses can released at any given time..resulting in a panic attack'.As for depression, you may not even realize you have it.Lost of interests is, but not always, an unfortunate sign you may be depressed.Approximately 4 weeks ago, i screwed my back up and almost immediately, i dove head first into a downward spiral..no lifting, isolating myself, i didn't really give a shit about anything, almost overnight.I had big plans..the allentown lifting competition, a HUGE thing to me, i was going to meet a few of my TID brothers, video the meet, have a great time..i seen all that, and more, disappearing.Well a month(give or take a week) has passed and i realized its never over! i will bounce back with time and patience, a virtue which most all of us lifters must possess or we wouldn't be where we are today.If a loved one or friend notices a negative behavior change or you feel an 'empty' feeling, see your doctor ASAP! don't tell yourself 'I will get over this' or something on that order, these feelings may intensify! talk to your doctor,or feel free to pm me and even though I am far from being a doctor,I may be able to steer you in the right direction. don't feel embarrassed! I am recouping, and i shall come back bigger and stronger than ever! thank you my friends for your time!